Bangkang de Papel

Malamig ang simoy ng hangin na dumadampi sa makinis na balat ni Rey kasabay neto ang paghalik ng sinag ng araw sa bukang liwayway. Ang mga paru-paro ay nagsasayawan sa mga ibat ibang kulay ng bulaklak sa gilid ng batis. Mga batang naglalaro ng bangkang de papel na pinapaanod sa mala crystal na tubig na umaagos patungo sa kawalan. Ang mga halakhak nila’y patunay lamang sa pagak nilang kasiyahan. Mga huni ng ibong tila nagsisipag awitan sumasabay sa lagaslas ng tubig mula sa talon sa di kalayuan at sa kaliskis ng mga dahong nagsasayaw sa bawat daan ng hangin na nanggagaling sa kung saan man.

Oo kahali-halinang tanawin di gaya sa syudad kung saan nagtrabaho si Rey. Maingay, mausok, mainit at maiitim na tubig na dumadaloy sa mga kanal sa gilid ng kalsada. Di kagaya sa lugar kung saan sya napadpad na tila kabaliktaran ng lugar na kanyang pinanggalingan.

Nakangiti si Rey habang pinagmamasdan ang lahat at sinamyo ang hanging kay sariwa.

“Antagal ko ng di nakita ang mga ngiting yan,” sabi ng lalaki kanina pa pala sya pinagmamasdan.

“Oh! Thomas ikaw pala yan. Oo nakakarelax di kagaya sa syudad na lahat hinahabol ang oras pati hangin tila nakikipaghabulan din sa oras!” Ang mahabang litanya ni Rey habang nakangiting nakatingin sa malayo. Sa kawalan. Kasunod ng nakabibinging katahimikan.

Nakatingin si Thomas kay Rey pinagmamasdan ang maamong mukha. Ang makakapal nyang labi. Ang makakapal nyang mga kilay. Ang di katangusan nyang ilong. Ang mala almond nyang mga mata.

“Hoy! Ano tinitignan mo diyan!” Ang biglang sabi ni Rey ng mapansin niyang nakatingin sa kanya si Thomas. Sabay tawa nung makita niya ang medjo gulat na reaksyon ng kanyang kasama.

“Naalala mo pa rin ba sya?” Tanong ni Thomas.

“Sino?” Sagot ni Rey.

“Si Manuel” sabi ni Thomas.

“Ahhhh” ang natatanging naisagot ni Rey sa tanong ni Thomas. Kasunod ng mahabang katahimikan.

“Masaya akong makita kang ngumingiti ulet. Alam mo ang saya ko din nung narinig kitang tumatawa sa mga napapanood natin sa telebisyon. Nagulat nga si mama kaninang umaga nung bigla mo syang kina-usap eh at tumulong sa pagluto ng ating umagahan. Masaya ako kasi antagal ko ng hindi nakita yung mga yun unti unti natutupad ang dalangin ko na bumalik ka na sa dati mong estado. Yung masayahin at kalog na Rey na kilala ko,” salaysay ni Thomas.

“Ganun pa man masaya ako kahit na lungkot at hinagpis pa rin ang nakikita ko sa iyong mga mata. Mag aantay ako hanggang sa darating yung araw na totoong masaya ka na. Yung babalik yung kislap ng iyong mga mata.” Pagpapatuloy nya.

Humarap si Rey kay Thomas at niyakap niya eto ng mahigpit. “Salamat dahil ikaw ang patuloy na umiilaw sa aking madilim na mundo. Salamat sa ilaw na dulot mo. Sa pag ahon sa akin sa kumunoy ng buhay. Ikaw ang rason kung bakit muli akong umasang masaya ang mabuhay.”

Kumalas si Thomas sa pagkakayakap kay Rey. Hinawakan niya ang mga pisngi neto at dahan dahan niyang inilalapit ang kanyang mukha para abutin ang labi ni Rey na boung puso namang inaantay ng isa.

“Ahem!” Biglang nabitawan ni Thomas ang pisngi ni Rey at sabay nilang nilingon ang tumikhim.

“Bago pa kayo magdramahan jan at mag iyakan. Tawagin niyo na sina Ella at Marie (mga pamangkin ni Thomas) at ihanda ko na ang hapag para sa hapunan natin.”

“Opo ma!” Sagot ni Thomas.

“Thomas ako na tatawag sa kanila. Tulungan

O na lang si tita sa loob.” Segunda naman ni Rey.

“Oh segi anak tawagin mo sila. Andun sila sa taas malapit sa talon, naglalaba. Mag-ingat ka na lang sa iyong nilalakaran at baka ikaw ay madulas,” ang bilin ng mama ni Thomas.

Masayang naghapunan ang pamilya kasabay si Rey na nakikipagbiruan sa kanila.

“Akala ko pipi ka ang kulet mo din pala, pareho kayo ni Thomas,” pansin ng daddy ni Thomas kay Rey.

“Hay naku nagmumukmok lang yan kasi broken hearted,” pangangantiyaw naman ng mama ni Thomas.

Umupo si Thomas sa upuaang kahoy sa harap ng kubo. Pinagmamasdan ang talon na walang tigil sa pagbuga ng tubig na kasinlamig ng tubig sa ref. Isang taon na pala ang lumipas. Isang taong nangungulila sa isang taong minsang dinala niya sa lugar na eto. Malinaw pa rin sa kanyang ala-ala ang huling masasayang araw nila ni Rey.

Gumawa si Thomas ng bangkang papel gamit ng isang pahina ng diary ni Rey. Tumayo si Thomas at naglakad patungo sa ilog.

“Salamat sa ala alang aking babaunin sa paglakbay ko sa magulong mundong ibabaw. Sabi ko dati sasamahan kitang limutin siya na hindi kita hahayaang umiyak mag-isa.”

“Sabi ko ako ang magiging ilaw mo sa dumilim mong mundo mula ng iwan ka ni Manuel mag-isa ng walang paalam. Pero labis kong pinagsisihan na wala ako ng araw na malunod ka sa ilog na eto. ”

“Sobrang saya ko ng araw na muli kong makita ang iyong mga ngiti. Ang saya saya ko din ng marinig ko ang iyong mga halakhak dahil inaasar asar ka nina daddy at mommy. Ang saya kong pumasok ng kwarto ko ng araw na yun. Alam ko simula na ng iyong pagbangon.”

“Kung sana hindi ako nakatulog ng hapon na yon sana andito ka pa sa tabi ko. Kagaya ni Manuel wala din ako nung mga oras na kailangang kailangan mo ako. Na sana nasamahan kita sa ilog. Di ka sana nalunod sa ilog! Patawarin mo ako mahal ko,” ang mahabang bulong ni Thomas.

Umupo si Thomas sa gilid ng ilog at nilabas ang bangkang papel at pinaanod nya eto. Kasabay nun ang unti unting pag agos ng luhang kanina pa niya pinipigil.

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Its Five Feet Apart

I watched the movie Five Feet Apart, and its definitely those kind of movie where I always feel in love with. The movie where I could connect. Its not because I have that kind of illness but rather because they are sick. Imagine where you are living in such a kind of illness where you can mingle with others but not to those people who has the same illness as you are. What makes matters worse is you can’t hold not kiss the person you love just because both of you could make your illness worse.

It is hard to deal with such circumstances. It is heart breaking but love can make you do so much even by risking your own life, your own welfare just to keep the other alive. Love can make you bid goodbye even to the person you have love so much so they could live a little longer. Love can make you sacrifice everything even your own happiness and your own life.

I had known rheumatic heart disease for so long. Well practically all my life and it hinders me in doing so many things that I wanted to do. And all I needed to do is to act the most normal way I could. To look healthy and strong so no one would pity me. Though my story is definitely different from what is in the movie I just could feel more fortunate than them because I could hold and kiss the person I love.

No One Is There

At our younger years when we look back at those moments we were energetic and always on the go. And that was wonderful! The momentum was there! You can take multiple projects all at once!

I had the same story! When I was in college I know I am struggling in many forms more so I am limited in many ways because of my heart condition but I am having a great time! More projects and more places to conquer! I don,t ever get tired.

After college I became even more aggressive because I want to show to people I wasn’t that sour looser everyone think I am not and I believe I was doing good!

But then life is not about apples and oranges. Life also has typhoons and tornado. I wasn’t ready for one and when it rains it pours heavily. I was grasping… I was out of breath… I am struggling! However show must go on! The show should never stop. I felt I was pulling off the greatest show I am into and so I quit so as not to drag everyone in my misery. Yes you mag have the greatest smile, your positivity is infectious and many great deals about you. And when you are in the middle of a storm it was hard to keep the vibes! And so I quit not because I am a looser but because I don’t want others to be dragged in the middle of my misery.

My room is dark! My house is everywhere! Depression was real! Its creepy and its dangerous! It gives you a roller coaster ride. A bumpy and crampy one!

One day at a time I was fighting it back. I was clinging on anything that comes my way. I was desperate! Everyone that comes my way I was begging for a dust of their positivity and inspiration. I am immobile. I am becoming a statue. And I don’t want to become that statue I am seeing myself turning into. So everyone that passes I was grabbing them some of their might so I could move a little. Like a baby who is learning to walk again until one day I am seeing myself moving once more. Though it is dark I know if I continue moving I can see the limelight I used to see and enjoy once more.

Yes! I moved and continued moving! Learning how to be in the center stage. Learning how to be smile once more! Learning how to genuinely laugh. Learning to be myself again. I believe that by doing so I can fight back depression and anxiety once and for all!

And when I knew I can do it again I am ready to open the door I temporary closed. I was excited knowing how I missed those good old days! The place where I became that workaholic and still happy for what I was doing. So I showed up with the best of look I good possible be.

However just like in the song… I was sure of myself and sure of what I wanted to do but when I showed up and slowly open the door… NO ONE WAS THERE!

🎼 🎵🎶 Just when I’d stopped opening doors,
Finally knowing the one that I wanted was yours
Making my entrance again with my usual flair
Sure of my lines
No one is there
🎵🎶🎶

So I still went ahead but in my mask, turn on my music and started to sway with the rhythm with my crappiest dance move!

🎵🎶Isn’t it rich?
Are we a pair?
Me here at last on the ground,
You in mid-air,
Where are the clowns?
🎵🎶

I closed my eyes! Spread my arms up in the air! I had my final turn… Now I know its time for my final bow! As I take my final bow I was happy I don’t feel remorse! I know my star doesn’t shine that bright anymore. And I guess that wasn’t a stage that belongs to me. It is used to but its not anymore. As I closed down the door, I whispered good luck I will try to find the stage for me. With my final bow I thanked the stage for being the stage I used to perform!

Toner Is A Must In Skincare Regimen

Oh yes it is! Ive been selling skincare products for a year or so now and most of the time toner or facial cleanser is always and most of the time neglected. Sometimes it is not religiously being used. So why is it that using toner or facial cleanser important?

Here is why…

In general, facial toners are often use to eliminate excess oil or it adds up in cleaning your face. After washing your face with soap and water, there are other pollutants and or debris that clogs the pores making your pores bigger. With the help of toners, it eliminates those harmful debris that clogs the pores and tighten it up making your pores shrink and would look smaller.

It Shrinks Your Pores

Applying a small amount of toner to a soft cotton ball or pad and gently blotting and wiping your face with it will remove oil and give the appearance of smaller pores.

Restores pH Ballance

Naturally our skin is acidic and according to skincare experts our skin’s pH ballance is between five and six on a scale of 0 to 14. But sometimes the balance can go beyond what is normal after cleansing because of the alkaline nature of soaps. So our skin will work overtime to return to its normal level and this may result to an oily skin. With the help of toners it can help restore this balance much faster.

It Adds Layer of Protection

Toners can help close pores and tighten cell gaps after cleansing, reducing the penetration of impurities and environmental contaminants into the skin. It can even protect and remove chlorine and minerals present in tap water.

It refreshes your skin

For people on the go and have no time to clean their face. Toner can also be used in lieu of washing your skin when it’s oily or dirty. It will leave your skin revitalized even when you’re on the go.

It can prevent ingrown hair

Toners containing glycolic acid or other alpha hydroxy acids can help to prevent ingrown hairs, so it also aids in grooming.

How to properly use toner?

Wet a cotton pad with toner, then swipe it over your entire face, neck, and chest. You should use toner after washing your face, and before using serum or moisturizer. (You can also wet your hands with toner and pat it gently on your skin, too.)

Why I choose NLIGHTEN Facial Cleanser?

One of my requirement in any skincare product are their certification. It should always be approved by the Food and Drug Authority (FDA) and it is much better if they are also certified by other such as HALAL and GMP certified in that way I know I feel safe and NLIGHTEN PRODUCTS are all certified on these three.

Aside from the certification, NLighten Facial Cleanser has multi-lightening complex that helps inhibit melanin formation. Hence, it leaves your skin lighter and even. Moreover, it has ingredients that keeps you protected from the sun.

Furthermore, NLighten Facial Cleanser has 3 botanical ingredients that helps lighten the skin and even the tone.

Hanggang Kailan?

Marami talagang mga pagkakataon na iisipin natin kung hanggang kailan… Hanggang kailan ko pagtitiisan ang isang relasyong una pa lang alam ko namang walang patutunguhan? Hanggang kailan ko iisipin na ang isang tao o bagay ay magiging akin? Hanggang kailan ako mag-aantay? Ito ay mga halimbawa lang na tinatanong natin sa ating mga sarili. Mga katanungang minsan ay tanging tadhana na lamang ang sasagot.

Minsan akala natin OK na ang lahat. Minsan akala natin naabot na natin ang rurok ng ating tagumpay. Pero mayroong darating na magsasabing mas meron pa tayong kayang abutin. Mas may hihigit pa sa inaakala nating kaya nating mapagtagumpayan.

Sa bawat galaw ng oras o hampas ng hangin sa bawat paglubog at pagsikat ng araw mayroong mag-iiba. Mayroong darating na magsasabing mayroon pa.

Minsan naman tayo’y napapalibutan ng samo’t saring problema. Mga tila problemang walang hanggan. Mga pagsubok na bumabalot at nagpapadilim sa ating mundo. Para bang nasa kweba tayo na walang makitang liwanag o di naman kaya’y sadyang napakalayo at gatuldok lamang ang ating nakikitang kumukutikutitap na liwanag. Hanggang kailan ako magdudusa? Hanggang kailan ako mag-aantay?

Tila ba titigil na ang mundo. Tila ba wala ng pag-asa. Pero kung titigil tayo hindi natin makikita ang liwanag sa bukana ng napakadilim na kweba ng ating buhay. Maari ngang napapatanong tayo sa kung hanggang kailan? Pero hindi eto dapat hahadlang para tayo’y magpatuloy. Kung aalahanin lang natin ang mga kahapong nagdaan na punong puno ng sigla at liwanag ang ating buhay. Eto’y ating babaunin sa pagtahak ng masalimout na buhay.

Hindi kailanman dapat magiging tuldok ng ating buhay ang katanungang hanggang kailan. Hindi dapat eto ang tutuldok sa ating pakikipagsapalaran. Bagkus kusa nating tutuklasin ang kasagutan kahit pa umabot ng magpakailanman.

NWORLD NEW Purifying Soap

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Freshen up with clean and healthy skin from NEW Purifying Soap! This amazing bar soap formulation is infused with botanical ingredients which help cleanse blemishes, help provide protection from germs, and help brighten and smoothen skin! Has Tea Tree Oil and Camu Camu Extract Ingredients.

Tea Tree Oil
✓ Helps treat oily skin, acne/blemishes
✓ Helps remove VAGINAL ODOR, SMELLY FOOT, and ECZEMA

Camu Camu Extract
✓ Rich in Vitamin C
✓ Helps Fight Pigmentation
✓ Glow back the Skin
✓ Erase Fine Lines and Wrinkles
✓ High Factor SPF

DESCRIPTION
Achieve a bright, clean, healthy, and smooth skin with the NEW Purifying Soap. This amazing Purifying Soap deeply cleanses blemished skin and also helps provide protection from germs. Exceptionally formulated with potent botanical ingredients so you could shower with freshness every day.

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NEW PURIFYING SOAP INGREDIENTS

Tea Tree Oil. Made from the leaves of tea trees that are usually used to treat a number of skin problems. This ingredient helps kill bacteria and fungus. It also helps reduce skin allergies. Moreover, the Tea Tree Oil helps treat oily skin, acne/blemishes. It also helps remove vaginal odor, smelly foot, and eczema.

Camu Camu Extract – is taken from Camu Camu, a plant that grows in some areas of the Amazon Forest and on some tropic countries like Columbia and Peru. This plant is often used to treat some viral infections. The Camu Camu fruit is rich in nutrients like Vitamin C. It helps fight pigmentation thus helps bring back the glow of the skin. It also helps reduce fine lines and wrinkles and has a high factor SPF.

Infused with these potent ingredients from nature, this New Purifying Soap deeply cleanses blemished skin. It also helps brighten and smoothen skin. It helps remove deep-seated dirt, helps exfoliate dead skin and provides protection from germs.

Directions for use
Wet face and body with water. Lather soap gently all over to achieve a soft and supple skin. Rinse thoroughly. Use daily for a cleaner, clearer and more radiant skin.

For any purchases of the products: Please see contact details below

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Tips for Today: Creating Extra Income

We all need that extra income to add in our pay check right? I believe so because we all have that unavoidable circumstances where we need more than what we have in our pay check. So here are some of the stories I have compiled for everyone.

STUDENT ENTREPRENUER

No matter what our status would be in life we can always that extra little things. So there’s this student who joined my team who would like to earn more to support herself from other expenses for herself. This student decided to make money out of what she want using and started asking her friends to buy some beauty soaps from her. Aside from what she earns on the products she is also starting to earn in her dashboard.

The Call Center Agent

This person is not a salesman. He works taking in calls to educate and inform customers. But the moments he badge out he carries his bags and started delivering some of the orders he has recieved through facebooks. He is patiently informing his facebook friends about the products he is selling and sooner or later he is starting to earn more in his dashboard. It is a matter of learning, perseverance and dedication on what he do makes him earn a little extra for his family.

The Overseas Contract Worker

No matter where you are, you can still more. So on her day off she takes her bag and go to church. After church the other OFW’s would come together to chat with their friends in the park or to someone elses appartment. While doing so, she just simply inform them that she is selling some goods they might be interested with and boom before she knew it… She has earned a lot.

The Engineer

A business for everyone! No matter what if you want to earn more for your childs education, for health insurance, for the things that you want… then to achieve them all is to have that little something that drives you up… before you knew it… you have acheieved all those goals.

THE WORKING MOM

Surely if youre a mom you wanted everything for your child. That drives her to join my team. To gain more aside from what she already has for her children as they are growing fast. She knew time will come and her kids are all grown up and are in collage. So while she can she wanted to save up for that.

They are the reason why I love what I am doing. The many reason why I joined NWORLD. I wanted to help people grow their money. For them to earn a little extra from what they already have for the things that they would wanna go, for their family, for the things that they would wanna buy. It doesnt matter who you are or where you from. Let me know and together lets join and achieve each dream we wanted to achieve.

And definitely this number would grow bigger in the coming months. Am sure 2019 would turn out to have a better story.